2018 is here!!!! Happy New Year!
Day 2 of 365 is almost over. It feels like just yesterday I wrote 2017's New Year post. Last year I suggested making realistic attainable lifestyle changes & goals, rather than New Year's resolutions that fall by the wayside before January is over.
So for 2018 I'm making small positive character changes in addition to my physical goals.
Everyone enjoys a good moan, including me. Often though I find I'm complaining at the silliest of things that in the grand scheme of life are really not that deep. So this year I am vowing to be more positive about things and be more grateful for my blessings. No matter what is going on, we all have something in our lives to be grateful for.
For a little while I lost who I was as a person, whom is someone who is naturally bubbly & always making silly jokes, at times to the shock & detriment of those I love. I must work on the fact that not everyone gets my sense of humour. Anyway, I've been feeling a lot more like myself in recent months and I adore that I am back. So this year, I am going to laugh a hell of a lot more, and make a lot more jokes & silly comments. Life can be draining enough without being constantly miserable, so take the moments wherever you can, to laugh as much as you can.
I am a control freak by nature. I hate to have other people in control of anything to do with me, it makes me nervous, but I have come to realise that it's not healthy for me to always be in control. That if I say I trust my loved ones & staff, I have to trust them, and trust that I made the right decision in having them in my life in whatever capacity. That's not to say I won't still "oversee" or check in from time to time, just that 2018 will see me loosening my death grip on situations where required.
Forgive Others & Myself
I can hold a grudge with the best of them. If I cut you off, that's it, no turning back, I'm done. This is usually because I would have said often enough what is annoying me, so when I stop & walk away, there is no going back, but that's not good. We are all human, & we all make mistakes. How I view things is not how the next person necessarily will, so I am vowing to forgive, be more understanding, stop making assumptions & let things go. I'm still no doormat, but I'm learning to let things go. I know from personal experience that life is too short, and just like that it can be over. Don't waste what precious little time we have holding grudges.
Forgive myself. I am my own harshest critic. If things don't work out perfectly the way I had it planned in my head, I'm in meltdown mode. I'm criticising myself & thinking all kinds of crazy negative thoughts. There will be no more of that. Things work out the way they are supposed for whatever reason. I'll be telling myself more of how strong I am. How beautiful I am. How far I have come. What I've survived. How I am fearfully & wonderfully made.
I am allowing myself to do what I have to do to be happy. If that means leaving toxic situations & relations, that's what I'll do. If that means moving away, then I'll do it. If it means stepping out of my comfort zone, guess what I'll do it. It won't always be easy & more often than not, it will be the most frightening thing ever, nobody wants to enter the unknown, but I have one life to live & I have to be happy living it. Some people may not always like the decisions I make for my life, but it's MY life & I have to be happy with it & be at peace with myself when I wake up each day & look at myself in the mirror.
So those are my New Year promises to myself for my life. Some, none or even all of them may be relevant to you in your life. Whatever promises you make to yourself, stick to them & make a positive change for a better life for you & those around you.
Wishing you all a fabulous 2018.